I'll Let You Know

Seeing as this is the only way
For anything to get said and done,
All this worrying,
Intrusive and elegant,
A million words can only waste time
If you let it,
A missing piece that will never be found,
I'll let you know,
I'll let you know if I ever see it again.

Too many pictures to get through,
Hard enough to let some memories die,
We're always young at heart,
And old to stay alive forever.

Never again - again tonight,
Thinking it's alright - alright for a while,
Pain in all forms - forms that can last forever,
Pleasure and suffer - suffer being part of everything.

Through words, emotions met,
Like glancing over, and locking eyes,
In the shadow, beyond these pages,
Where we don't belong,
Cunning and spiteful,
Just like it once was,
If you're still searching,
If you're still wondering,
If it's itching,
I'll let you know,
I'll let you know if I ever see you again.

Too many memories that won't die,
Talking too much
In the night, in this cold,
To myself, to no one else.

Keeping to myself - myself, not just an image,
Killing time - time we don't have enough of,
Lost in the eyes - eyes that were mesmerizing,
Images last a lifetime - lifetime, a lifetime.

Soundless Explosions

(no instrumental sound)
Haunted by the waste that fills the heart,
Caught up with all the tragedy,
The spark that ignites them all,
The sacrifice that ignites the passion.

Haunted by deceit and contradictions,
Placed in a room without any windows,
Steel bars prevent the freedom we have fought for,
In a world where our minds can be a prison.
(/no instrumental sound)

Vices,
Destruction,
Discrimination,
Faith,
Manipulation,
Oppression.

Visions of progression,
In a land without corruption,
A dream like a light switch,
Turning off when there's nothing left.

A box filled with hopes and desires,
A loaded gun filled with hate and chaos,
The nails in our coffin hammered down,
The voices in the night silenced by the wind.

Vices,
Destruction,
Discrimination,
Faith,
Manipulation,
Oppression.

Haunted by the waste that fills the heart,
Caught up with all the tragedy,
The spark that ignites them all,
The sacrifice that ignites the passion.

(no instrumental sound)
Talking to the dead, feeling no shame,
Walking on rubble, no shelters left,
Absorbing the pain, at least there's something to do,
No sound, no sound, no sound, no sound.

Into Flames

She extends her claws in his skin,
And it's over,
He looks into her eyes and whispers,
'Glad it's over,'
The rise of smoke in the house,
And in his lungs,
Virtuous disease, imperfect sounds,
In his days,
Nevermind the ring in the distance,
It will be erased.

And if we just sit back,
And let it takeover,
Maybe it will be better,
Gone in the wind
Where everything meets,
Sun will rise
And we'll all melt away.

What lies in her eyes, in her blood,
Is poisonous for him
The heart of the matter; the hate in the eyes,
Everything pushed away,
Flames in their hearts,
In the corners of the room,
Up against the wall
With those faces rising in the smoke,
In the heart of the ones you hate, you love,
Never be the same,
The noises fade away,
And she dies young.

And if we just sit back,
And let it takeover,
Maybe it will be better,
Be better! Be better!
But if we just hold on,
And let our hopes hold strong,
Maybe it will be harder,
Gone in the wind
Where everyone meets,
Sun will set
And we'll burst into flames.

*A Vicious Cycle*

Not for desire,
Not for pleasure,
Not for anything,
Not even for you.

What am I
If I don't understand myself?
What's the use
If you continue to use me?

Not for love,
Not for money,
Not for anything,
Not even for the world.

What am I
If I don't understand myself?
What's the use
If you continue to use me?

Not for infatuation,
Not for the lies,
Not for anything,
Not even for you.

Lives are changing,
Truth facing extinction,
Pride is efficient
In making me impatient,
People at war,
Politicians are a bore,
This commitment is failing,
This love is trailing
Behind this season of disaster,
With centuries of laughter.

All for the glory,
All for nothing,
All to be the one and only,
All to live a lie,
All to be praised,
All to be remembered,
All to fall apart,
All to be resurrected.

Not for desire,
Not for pleasure,
Not for anything,
Not even for you.

Tensions (and clear deceptions)

Living with this confrontation,
Demons block the light from the people
Who seek help and forgiveness,
Maybe it's the lack of sense,
In the soul where life explodes!

This world is chaotic,
Public attractions are distractions,
People claiming to be saved
By the lies they hide deep inside.

Tensions and clear deceptions,
From those we grow up idolizing,
Hungry and riots breaking,
Laws hiding the fact that
The rich prosper and take advantage!

This world is chaotic,
Procrastination ruining this nation,
Faith ruling the wicked,
This world is out of control.

Pressure leading this life
Into panic and great frustration,
Depression working into the minds,
Will the rain wash away the pain?
Coming to build what was once destroyed,
Now we can all watch it blow up again!

This world is chaotic,
Public attractions are distractions,
People claiming to be saved
By the lies they hide deep inside.

Fade, fade, fade, fade away,
Wake, wake, wake, wake up.

*Fill Her Up*

I wrote this 2 years ago, and it is perhaps my favorite poem/lyric I have ever written. I never blogged it, but I think it is time I did. It is not my best work, but it is a little different from the rest. The last stanza is a recent addition.

Torn, left out in the open,
Morose;
She feels the pain reaching for her hand,
The lights; flickering, blinding her view,
Her status; broken and bent,
The lie in her eyes,
The pain she has been through,
A calm, a wind, the storm
Reaching for her heart,
The pain, the tension
Building within,
Everything taken;
Her freedom, her peace but not her beliefs,
Guided by the hand of God,
But now evil mingles, intertwines
Racing for her thoughts,
Corruption flows,
But it is the world she must overthrow.

Filthy,
Her skin rubbled,
Cuts wide open; blood pouring out,
Silent and left to die in the four by four cage,
Soil fills her wound;
The world turns black,
No light to be seen,
Only the precious darkness surrounds her,
She fights for her life,
She fights in denial,
Beaten; blood spiting out,
To silence her; but she ignores,
Yelling for some more;
She wants anger filling her void,
It is this world she must overthrow.

Abused,
Living with the dirt in the road,
Lights flickering, her eye twitching,
She's thinking of change,
But none shall enter her life,
Now dumped in gasoline,
The president drops a lighted match.

Burnt,
But she left the fuckers with a smile on her face,
Can't take what you can't get,
The idea, the soul, the motivation,
Soon there will be another
Fighting the lines,
Taking pain for a cause,
And soon the truth comes out,
And it is this world she overthrows.

Something Like That

It's when I hold you in my arms,
It's when you smile back at me,
That I know everything's alright,
Yeah, something like that.

It's when we can strike up quite a conversation,
About anything and debate until the morning,
That I know you're someone special,
Yeah, something like that.

It's when we can smile while we look in each others eyes,
Not a single word, yet it says so many things,
That I know I can't ever let you go without a fight,
Yeah, something like that.

It's when everything's turn to shit,
And you're the only one that can help me through it,
That I know I'd be dumb to walk away,
When the feelings burning inside,
And you know something's right when you're holding hands,
Drawing our picture with the light in the sky,
Yeah, something like that.

Something Like This

It wasn't like this,
The lightning struck twice,
And everything just fell apart,
Control was an issue,
Never really got a grip of it,
Had everything just to lose it in the end,
Couldn't figure out how to put the pieces back.

Never lost faith in my fate,
Only in you, and the things that you do.

It shouldn't have ever begun,
This warfare between two,
Allies, enemies, whoever wins
Is guilty of cheating,
Different stories make different alibis,
Words can only take you so far,
Piecing together what is left,
Too many pieces, stories of regrets,
Attempts to conciliate,
Nothing left of anything.

Never lost faith in my fate,
Only in you, and the things that you do.

What has happened wasn't my fault,
Just like old times, I'll never take the blame,
We're in the same boat,
We enjoy pointing fingers,
Makes us feel better about who we are,
Trouble in the heartland,
All about romance,
Until it falls apart,
Until it's not fun anymore.

Never lost faith in my fate,
Only in you, and the things that you do.

What love does to you
When you keep pushing and pulling,
Working on the weekends,
Conversations dying young,
Confrontations are better,
Nothing lasts forever.

Never lost faith in my fate,
Only in you, and the things that you do.

There Is Intent, Just No Connection ... Yet

This blog has been real quite for the last couple of months, but I assure you that I have written a lot (and I mean a lot) of lyrics/poems. Loads of drafts, and little satisfaction. That's how I see it. I've been structuring, and re-structuring some. Scrapping stanzas and, sometimes, chorus'.

A work of art, I guess. Well, to a certain extent. There are two poems/lyrics that should be ready to be blogged by the end of this week. If not, then they will be pushed to the next week.

I assure you that I won't be blogging all my poems/lyrics. Some are indeed drafts, while others are completed but won't be blogged. And by drafts I do not mean, a couple of lines or one stanza; I mean 80-90% done. The other 10-20% being subtle adjustments or completely not satisfied with the entire product.

Empty Room

Four walls,
Just one chair,
This empty room,
Window left open,
Now to sit and wait,
To leave all thoughts open,
Everyone likes to judge others,
But no one wants to be judged.

Leave it to me to fuck everything up,
Living a day at a time
Watching the storm heat up,
Disasters and full of blame,
Hard to resist
When you're prone to giving in,
Making mistakes
Like when we first met,
No one likes to be judged,
But sometimes someone needs to hear it.

You're the first to point the finger,
It's me, I'm always the one to blame,
Perceive and deceive,
You're always right
And I'm always wrong,
That's how it's supposed to be, right?
When one can't take it any more
He seeks other means
To fulfill that empty space in himself,
We're all to blame, aren't we?
Judging, always judging,
Don't worry, I know your vices too.

In this empty room,
Alone with these four walls
To guide me,
It's going to be a long night.

Then & Now

Pleasures and other stories
Filling my mind with just about everything,
Take a walk with me
And let the breeze take us away from here,
Smooth things out
And let the pieces fall where they may.

That was then, this is now.

You need me
More than I need you,
All those forgotten swords,
All the love lost in between,
Broken soul, fragile appearances,
The storm that keeps reviving.

This is now, that was then.

Feasting our eyes at the entertainment that presides,
Fraudulent behavior we dissuade,
Commitments we pursue then walk away,
Adjusting the rear-view mirror
To draw attention to someone else.

All those forgotten moments,
All the love lost in between,
Broken soul, fragile appearances,
What to give, how to take,
You need me
More than I need you.

No Man's Land

Past the burning homes on the boulevard,
War is in progress while the bullets come down hard,
It was believed this would never happen,
Words spit, but the pistol spoke,
One dead soaked in blood,
While the other walks away clean,
Over, and over, hearing the shots,
The window shatters, the walls crumble,
The voices haunt you forever.

It's a hunt for the best shelter,
Only safe for a short while,
You'll either die or be running to the next,
Forever lies, or be covered in ...

The dust surrounding the field of vision,
It seems like yesterday everything was bright and sunny,
But light may never be seen again,
It's cold in the hearts and in the blood,
The flesh peeling, bodies pinned and bleeding out,
Seems like yesterday was far behind,
Buildings toppled, crumbling or bombed,
Wherever you run you're in no man's land,
The images haunt you forever.

It's a hunt for the best shelter,
Only safe for a short while,
You'll either die or be running to the next,
Forever lies, or be covered in ...

No more pills,
No more syringes,
No more images,
No more taste of skin,
No more, no more.

*The Devils Grin*

The sunlight piercing through the armor,
The waves come crashing down,
Sand filling the mouths of the thieves,
When everything comes to an abrupt stop,
Never felt this cold, never knew this existed.

If the mind were this enslaved,
If the memories would fade away,
Then what's there to live for,
If it was all taken away.

Such images telling a different story,
Letters scattered on the floor of an abandoned home,
Words mean everything when there's nothing left,
Who is there to hold when everything's wrong,
The burning ground and the amount of ash,
No water to wash it all away,
Just sulfur to make it one hell of a day.

If the mind were this enslaved,
If the memories would fade away,
Then what's there to live for,
If it was all taken away.

This scene of rage and sea of red
Flashing through the early days living in hell,
Thinking of what I should have done,
Instead led by the poison of infatuation,
Incinerated, cause of defeat in every situation.

No ones there to save,
No ones there to hear your voice,
No one was ever there,
All this fiction seemed fact,
Has your fear been that elevated?

If the mind were this enslaved,
If the memories would fade away,
Then what's there to live for,
If it was all taken away.

*Better*

THIS IS MY 100TH BLOGGED LYRIC/POEM!

Pushing myself through this wave of destruction,
All we recognize is all this corruption,
The darkness in me,
The darkness in you,
We are all to blame,
I'm trying to find myself again,
I seem to have lost myself in you,
Failed to see what I could have had,
The light in the street is wearing thin,
The fire in our eyes is slowly dying,
I need to find myself before I lose myself.

Evil is getting the better of us,
I'm trying to be a better man,
I'm trying to be a better man,
Somebody come find me.

On the line to change my ways,
To be someone that I can trust,
Looking in the mirror
To see if I can recognize myself,
I figured I can do no more wrong
If I can look inside my soul,
One by one just trying to steer clear
Through the path that I have chosen,
The long walks down the road,
The memory of my heart you stole,
Fighting off the demons I see,
Young at heart and years to go,
Struggling to find a way back home.

(slowly)
Convinced that everything can be fixed,
With a gentle heart and a sweet touch,
Distance doesn't mean anything,
The hell we keep putting ourselves through,
The hearts that keep breaking,
The desire of finding oneself
No matter where life takes you,
To find a way back,
To understand.
(fade out)

Just trying,
Just trying,
Always trying,
Oh, just trying.

Better, better for me,
Better, better for you,
Going down that same road,
Similar writings on the wall,
Slipping and falling for you,
I've learned, but I guess not much,
Still stuck in the same state of mind
That was to blame all this time,
Looking for a way to get myself
Out of this hole that I've created,
Done with the long nights
Where I stayed up thinking about
Everything,
Up and away,
This crazy life and those sweet blue eyes
That always get me no matter what,
Tough luck along the way where I walk,
Finding a way to find myself again,
Because I lost myself in you, in you,
I'll keep writing everything down,
To keep track of what I love,
To keep track of the thing's I lost.

Better, better for me,
Better, better for you,
Wondering where I stand
If I just do what I'm told,
Or if I continue walking
Making decisions on my own,
Go all out, go on 
Making a move to eliminate
Any evil within,
Any hatred for yourself,
On the road again,
Feeling weak, but strong,
No sound around me,
All hope around you,
Finding myself in this situation
That got me where I am now,
Lost myself and still turning every direction,
Let me work this out on my own,
Let me warm to where I feel I belong,
Maybe I'll find myself in you,
Maybe I'll finally see what you've been through,
Maybe I can fix you, I want to,
But I need to fix me, to find me,
Without knowing yourself where do you stand?
Better, better for me,
Better, better for you,
This garden,
This mountain of life,
The words from our mouths
Don't always feel right.

It's
Better, better for me,
Better, better for you,
It's
Better, better for me,
Better, better for you.

*Violet*

Sometimes I feel like this world's going to explode
In my hand,
The feeling that justice will prevail
Is slipping away,
The words are my own, not yours
Find another hell,
Heaven is dead and no one understands
Belief that life is dying.

Situations put us in a different state of mind,
When is it time to settle the score?
Hunting down what is mysterious,
Blame yourselves because you're fucked up.

Had everything just to watch it wash away,
The dark in the sky and the light in her eyes,
So close to defeat as I'm close to victory,
Wondering over the mountains looking for the sunrise,
Standing tall, but any moment I'll dissolve,
Walking through the forest of regrets,
Stumbling in pain through the streets of missed opportunities.

The glow in the sky, the fire blazing in the heart,
Repetitive motions, unconscious decisions,
Hunger in the eyes, saving the best for last,
Fierce, furious, focusing too much on what's wrong,
Neglecting the importance that paved the way for the future,
The rules of this life, the deep roots in our blood.

*Flatline*

Don't you tell me how it's going to be,
Don't you put the blame on me,
Take away this pain,
Take away this fame,
Take away this pain.

Behind the bullet proof glass
Sipping coffee, feeling safe, and sharing stories,
A million mistakes piercing the wall
Between life and death.

Coming in through the storm,
Feeling sore and useless,
Trying to pull yourself together
Loose change and dirty clothes,
In, out, the voices of riots.

Don't you tell me how it's going to be,
Don't you put the blame on me,
Take away the pain,
Take away this fame,
Take away the pain,
Got to learn how to play this game.

Lighting this room with a spark of hate,
Papers, sheets and memories on fire,
Watching from the door, now turning away,
Let it be what it'll be, start again, once again,
Face it, nothing stays the same.

Counting the stars in the sky,
Because there's nothing of importance tonight,
Wooden frames and plastic glass,
A countless amount of images flashing before the eyes,
Smashed chandeliers, slashed tires for every car,
Highlighting the evening with explosions in the sky.

Don't tell us how it's going to be,
Don't put the blame on me,
Too much too soon,
Is this how it must be?

*Anywhere and Everywhere*

OK. This poem/lyrics has been lost for several months now. I just realized that I wrote it. I contemplated whether I should blog it or not because I wasn't fully satisfied with it. Actually there are a ton of poems/lyrics which haven't been blogged simply because I haven't been satisfied with them or due to others being incomplete.

And if luck runs out,
And if there's a storm tonight,
And if it's cold inside,
Would you show me your love?

If you're feeling afraid,
If you're hurt and feel used,
If you're feeling like there's no one there,
Don't worry, I'll always be there for you.

With these memories,
Filling hearts with happiness,
Mostly comfort and confidence,
Passing time while holding hands.

If you want to reach the sky,
If you want to be spontaneous,
If you want to feel like you're on top of the world,
Then don't let anyone stop you.

And if I messed up,
And if I showed you I care,
And if I lost myself,
Would you show me the right way?

With these memories,
Filling hearts with happiness,
Mostly comfort and confidence,
Passing time while holding hands.

If there would be no tomorrow,
If the sun would lose it's brightness,
If there's no future,
Would you be there by my side?

*Then You're Already Dead*

All the lives taken away,
All the souls tied up in chains,
Ways of life at a constant change,
Mourning hearts every fucking day.

Bad excuses, portraits, my apathy,
Emptiness inside me,
Well, I don't care,
I don't care anymore.

The screeches filling my mind,
Hard to concentrate inside,
What was once something is nothing,
Well, I don't care.

She wants to make us into slaves,
Well I'm breaking free from these chains,
I don't need any more lies,
Breaking through.

All the praise in the world,
Someone's dying, another raises hell,
Standing and watching the suffering,
Crumble to pieces, come here we'll beat you.

The souls can be hard to heal,
Cause and effect never striking a deal,
With you I feel misplaced,
Always selfish .... fuck you!

Do what you want to do,
I won't give in to you,
You, you sold your soul,
Strike, lit, engulfed in flames!
Strike, lit, engulfed in flames!

Sweet disease taking us on,
Iron fists trying to bring us down,
They're setting the noose and strking a smile,
We're the targets, they want to take us out!
We're the targets, they want to take us out!

Some innocent, many mistreated,
Tightly wrapped, gasoline and a match,
The gun to their head,
The fear in their eyes,
If resist doesn't come to mind, then you're already dead!
If you give in to the fear, then you're already dead!

*The Dark Side Of This Room*

Her love, her disruption,
His hate, his confusion,
Missing confrontations because he woke up late,
Looking in looking out wondering where to hide,
Something's not right as he held her hand,
Pushing for something other than a kiss,
Sum of all the oppurtunities he missed,
Working in working out leaving everyone behind.

Her sweetness, her misery,
His missing light, his pleasure,
Arriving early despite all the distractions,
She's living a double life, but nobody knows,
Promiscuous and wanting all the charms,
Trying hard to figure out what's wrong,
She's not determined just selfish and cunning,
Working in working out to keep everyone on her side.

No right,
Zapped the love from each others heart,
Plain and simple,
Confusion in the dark.

When they met they didn't know each other,
Tension in the heart love in their eyes,
Sitting around brainstorming potential lies,
Sifting and shifting whatever comes their way,
Looking around for any distraction,
For any disruption that may push them away,
Only teens,
Twenty and learning,
So young and naive.

No right,
Zapped the love from each others heart,
Plain and simple,
Confusion in the dark.

*The Only Feeling*

A town is turning to ashes,
A volcano erupts near by,
The hysteria ensues,
Voices dying at an incredible rate,
Down the mountain
Everything falls to pieces,
Up in the sky
Dark; the smoke rises,
Climbing all at the same time,
Falling one by one.

There's this burning feeling
Within their soul,
There's no one near
To save them, to heal them.

A home filled with anyone,
A hole filled with all the dead,
Something in the air is dying,
Nowhere to be found,
Fluorescent lights shining through the room,
Everything so bright, so right,
It's not what happens,
But how you fight through it.

There's this burning feeling
Within the soul,
There's this light I once saw,
But now it's gone,
There's no one near
To save us, to heal us,
Broken-down,
If we're not dead yet,
Then what are we?
Bright lights flashing
And then fade away,
There's something evil lurking in the night,
Why can't we explain it?
Deep down the light is shining one last time,
Anywhere but here,
Plenty and nothing,
Dealing with the demon,
Working on out,
Past the gate, over the mountain,
What was, what should
No longer is.

Judge And You WIll Be Judged

Shredding all evidence
Of past lives and defeat,
Missionaries coming in from underneath,
Trying to seal the soul somewhere beyond,
Always on the run,
Seeking answers for they won't tell,
Waking up near a corpse who refused,
The blood on these streets,
The scars on their bodies,
Crosses and oil,
Who are they to judge anyone?

The dark gray skies,
Blood on the knife,
Through the halls and into homes,
Leaving satisfied
When no one questions,
When no one defies what they believe,
Some burning forever,
But who are they and what the fuck do they know?
Streamlined,
Take what you've got
You know where to put it,
This is a time to live free and question everything,
One of a kind,
Who are they to judge anyone?

When days fall hard upon thee,
Captured and betrayed,
Down on your knees,
Welcomed home without any trust,
Deep and under,
Whatever leads and whoever sees
This storm on the rise,
No more trace of mankind,
What one does or says,
Everyone believes they hold the truth,
Days are numbered,
But who are they to judge?

*Don't Even Know*

Why don't you let this fall
And see what's left behind,
What's being kept within
Your precious soul?
This vibe I'm feeling
Never satisfying,
Why don't you let it be
What it was meant to be.

It's like I don't even know you anymore,
Your head low while dragging your feet,
Keeping the pain inside,
When all is said and done.

So many thing's I'd like to tell you,
But so little time,
I'm afraid that by the time I let it out
You won't remember me,
Reflections can only by so much
To clear away what's left inside,
When all is gone and you move on
To wherever life take you,
Will you remember me?

It's like I don't even know you anymore,
All the pain you held inside is catching up to you,
I hate to see you like this
And so useless when I can't do anything,
Don't even know you anymore.

This Whole Time

False alarms,
Awkward moments,
Fallen times with what you expected,
Stolen heart,
A wall to hide your tears,
No one really knows what they've got
Until it's gone,
A strong tide coming in.

Quit trying to be someone else,
There are times we'll struggle,
Built bridges and bright candles,
But nothing's ever good enough for you.

Who will rescue you?
Who will help you when you dig yourself a hole?
Gunning for the main prize,
Wondering what it would be like to have it all,
But you had it all,
And you let it die this whole time.

Quit trying to be someone else,
There are times we'll struggle,
Built bridges and bright candles,
This whole time wasn't ever good enough for you.

Start of Something

Well the wind sweeps you off your feet,
You're glistening home, where you belong,
Thunderous sounds, empty desires,
Far from where you stood,
Watching life pass by at the blink of an eye,
The sky is dark at times,
Zoning out, putting yourself behind,
Now doesn't feel right,
Tomorrow's another story.

(slow)
The other,
Makes the best out of every situation,
Skepticism penetrated by optimism,
Well when she breaks down,
She picks herself right where she left off,
No excuses, she knows when she digs herself a hole,
Commiserating, conversations pick off so easily.
(fade out)

Back to the one who's immature,
You're stuck inside your pathetic world,
Where everyone's at your feet,
Controlled to please and obey,
All is good until you're bored,
Manipulating hearts for fun,
Beautiful, life in your eyes,
Preaching the world with chosen words,
Young and naive,
Dumb and beauty,
Stuck inside, empty desires.

(slow)
This girl,
In her green jacket,
Sitting on her own,
So genuine, filled with love,
A mind of her own,
Free as a bird,
Never craves attention,
Just wants someone to hold her,
But not afraid to be alone,
Picks herself up,
Says what's on her mind, everytime,
Others before herself,
Never in a rush,
This girl.
(fade out)

Nothing But Trouble

Wondering how the hell we got here,
All this commotion,
All this frustration,
All these beliefs we believed
Kept us on our feet,
No where else,
But we thought we could rule and observe,
Stuck on the line,
Don't know where we woke up.

You say I got a problem,
I say you lack inteligence,
You say I'm tough to be around,
I say you're a bitch who's selfish,
This inferno around us,
The cold in your heart,
If only you made sense,
But you say I'm nothing but trouble.

Everything you touch
Seems to turn to dust,
This hell we're in,
Looks like fun anyways,
Pushing for money, you're greedy,
Quit dragging me along
To these empty dreams,
They say we're fun to watch,
Sinking to seclusion,
The rise of the tide,
But nothing strong enough
To take out the fire.

You say I'm fucked up,
I say you're born to lose,
You say I'm a problem,
I say you lack confidence,
You turn this love to hate,
In the fire, we're two dying flames,
I can say what I want,
And you're nothing but trouble.

Tonight's not the night,
As if it wasn't heated enough,
Ain't no sunshine near,
It's a shame to live with all this fear,
Dragging me to hell,
You drag me twice as much,
Keep pushing me away,
I'm feeling fine without you,
Through wars and disputes,
You always say.

You say I wasn't good enough,
I say you're fucked up anyways,
You say I won't understand,
I say you really were a problem,
Never solve, just learn to way away,
You'll never know,
And you always say,
I'm nothing but trouble.

*Catastrophic*

I have been working on this for the last 2 weeks. Like many of my lyrics/poems, the meaning is meant to be interpreted in various ways (depending on how you feel and what it means to you). However, I believe I'm pretty clear on what I was trying to create and shape throughout Catastrophic. I must admit that it probably won't be the final version - perhaps small adjustments here and there. An extra stanza is highly possible. That said, I hope you, the readers, enjoy this lyric/poem as much as I enjoyed writing it.


All that was promised seemed so great,
All that you wanted seemed in place,
Heart of gold, hearts misguided,
A mouth always smiling; pretty lips,
A life designed to carry you to heaven,
Figured your desires would last forever,
Nothing was a waste, just needed time,
You're hurting yourself and blind to the lies,
Screaming inside so no one could hear,
Putting aside all the shame,
Caught with your hands over your eyes,
Sinking again further away,
From all of your friends and those who care,
Lying to yourself that everything's fine,
Torn apart and broken inside,
No one should force you to make up your mind,
It's you who should learn from all of your mistakes,
Sitting down in a pretty place,
Disagreements and confusion with your soul,
Turning away, but you can't escape,
All the horror and this catastrophic love.

Oh, what lies inside wants out,
Oh, what's there can be gone tomorrow,
Oh, what you are or what you can be,
Slightly stung, sleepy sun.

All that was gold turned to dust,
All of your sorrows began to erupt,
Promised disguises now up in flames,
Heated discussions and cold hearts,
Faded admiration, false lust,
Striking the match, but there's no sparks,
Hanging on with the little you have left.
Breaking down and letting it all out,
It seemed that this could never be,
Part of your smile is make belief,
Hiding your grief through the brink of destruction,
So sad to cave in to that seduction,
Troubled soul is a troubled heart,
Words can only do so much,
Leaning on to what you've got,
But soon enough you won't have much,
Taste of fear; no longer nomadic,
You're hungry for something but can't find a way,
To get what you didn't want then,
You had you're chance, now broken hearts,
To find the way to that brilliant disguise,
What could have been, what should have been,
The end is near and you know it too,
Such love, your love is catastrophic.

Catastrophic!!! (x3)

Oh, what lies inside wants out,
Oh, what's there can be gone tomorrow,
Oh, what you are or what you can be.

*Like A Dream (Wake Up)*

Like a dream,
Out of the clouds
With the sun shining on her face,
Racing to see her again,
Walking tall with a smile on my face,
This is a dream,
Must be a dream,
I can't get her out of my mind,
Where am I now?

Fragments of love flying with the wind,
In the dark,
Sleeping beauty,
She's the light in these dark times,
Dance through the night,
I want to dance with her,
Like a dream
Coming down from the stars,
That halo above her head.

Jumping heart,
Monday blues,
Summer skies,
All alone is never fine,
Young and lovely,
Keeping everything inside,
Time to listen to my heart,
Is this a dream?
Maybe it's time to learn from my mistakes
And wake up, wake up,
And wake up, wake up!